4:40 am – Can’t Sleep Again… Sigh.

So this seems to be happening a lot more lately, which is puzzling.

I went through some terrible insomnia once before, and this is starting to get scary again. The last time was pretty weird… Although I’ll save everyone time by not going on about that.

Well, I was watching the show ‘Castle’ again, but this time by myself. It actually is pretty good, I had seen a few episodes a few years ago, but lost track. Feels good to catch up and it has most things I like in it.

Mystery, crimes, two hilarious leads, and engaging stories. All it’s missing is a horror or paranormal element to be a complete package of what I like, but it works without those things, and not everything can be horror or paranormal related. That would just be boring if it was.

And I like variety anyways.

One reason I’m writing this post is that strange feeling came back again. That weird one of something isn’t right somewhere, but it’s almost like I can’t pinpoint the what, where, or even how I’m feeling it.

There’s been a lot of times when my gut instinct has told me something, and I didn’t act on it, and something terrible happened. However, this time I don’t know what I need to be acting on to prevent or learn what is to come.

I’m not sure I’d call it ‘psychic’ but clearly something is happening and I’m not a fan of the strange feeling that keeps appearing out of nowhere. Not even watching a TV show could drown it out this evening.

Makes me wonder, am I losing my mind or something? I don’t even know what that is anymore to be honest.

Maybe this weirdness is coming from the death in the family I learned about a few days ago.

It wasn’t anyone I was close too, and it might sound cold but, it was someone who was supposed to be family that betrayed me last year. I didn’t feel much when I learned they were gone, just a sense of it being somehow surreal.

Could they really be gone? Was it true? At first I didn’t believe it, but I soon found out. Yep. It was very true.

It was strange, but… Maybe I’m just heartless? I didn’t feel anything. As soon as the words came, “They’re gone.”

…I drew a blank. I went, “What?” And of course my sister had to repeat what she said.

But I’m not sure so much if it was because I didn’t hear her right or if it dealt more with the strange dream I had the night before the news broke out.

Of course I’d go into more details but I’m still coming to terms with it, so I think I’ll save it for another post at another time.

Well, it’s almost 5am now and the silence is eerie. Nothing is making a sound but my fingers across this keyboard.

Not much scares me, but whatever this is… feeling, premonition, deja vu, I don’t know. It is no doubt, starting to freak me out a bit.

And as I sit here, in front of the window the streetlight outside keeps going on and off. Anyone ever get the feeling you’ll be typing on the computer and you’ll look outside and someone will be standing there? Yeah. Well I’m getting that feeling now.

Time to close the blinds. Only problem is then, it still feels like I’m being watched.

Ugh. I guess there’s no rest for a ghost magnet sadly, sometimes I understand how Jennifer Love-Hewitt felt in Ghost Whisperer. Can’t nobody catch a break?

Ha. Just thought of a weird twist, what if it’s not a ghost but actually somebody….?

Well, I’m rambled for too long. Now off to watch more Castle, and wait for the sun to come up…when I can actually get some sleep. Makes me wonder have I actually turned into a vampire? Could be convenient, I’d not have to worry about eating food anymore, could save a lot of money. Although, not so sure I could get into blood drinking. Doesn’t sound very pleasant to me.

Goodnight fellow bloggers and readers, and hopefully my strange posts don’t scare you off. This is just one of those random products of being up too late and being over tired but unable to sleep. I’m sure many have been there before and knows what it feels like.

And now,

Until next time my readers (and possible lack thereof)



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